I am all alone

The wind hisses that I’m all alone, no one in this world to care.
I plead at mercies gate for help but it just leaves me there.
A bitter coldness washes me and reinforces the fact.
I am all alone now and there is no going back.

My sobs fall on silent ears, never again will you care.
I loved you, but nothing in the way you bare.
I just want that phoenix to rise, to once that once more.
Because life has gotten me, it is killing its target score.

I miss you, miss you so very much, more than I can say.
I never wanted to admit it but bitterness fell in the way.
If only I could show you, show you you were wrong.
I wouldn’t be alone nor death sing its victorious song.

Why won’t life just take me? It tortures me and you.
I admit defeat this time for I cannot make it through.
Crumpled in a heap, this is how I should be.
All alone so that no one gets hurt from me.

I only longed for friendship, I wish you longed that too.
I didn’t want any deeper emotions, this most certainly true.
Sobbing is useless, I can’t even read the words on y page.
I am so sorry for pain, I never meant that bitter rage.

This is it, I have to walk away now and forever more.
Never to return for it is best for you to stand tall.
Never will I try to hurt you, never have, never will.
But I am all alone and my life sadness will slowly kill.